Between Duncan and I!!! She is coming with me next time, is going to get one of his hands, one of mine, make us face each other and she is going to say 'Right, she loves you. You love her. Now, will the two of you just get it on!!!' *giggles* Bless her. Thing is I think we both know it (well, I know for a fact I do), but neither of us want to say anything right now.

Anyway, I couldn't get on here last night for love nor money, so this update might be a bit of a long one (sorry). Shall start with yesterday...

After I posted on here yesterday I thought more and more about that Dundas & Wilson job and just got angrier and angrier! I worked my arse off for them, was happy, was smiley and friendly when I was bored out of my mind, hating the job and was resorting to thinking rude Duncan thoughts to get me through it (most involved him naked, endless supplies of nice food, hot tubs and the one I was most proud of my mind for thinking up - shagging against the bonnet of a silver X5 in the pouring rain! Thank you my mind...when it goes off on one it REALLY goes off on one!), I was dressed smartly for them and if I hadn't been smart enough for them (which I certainly was! People were wearing kinda casual tops with trousers and I was wearing my smart blouses and trousers!) then why wasn't it mentioned to me on the first day? I don't know why it is bothering me so much, as I hated it, totally hated it! The people were weird (with the exception of Hayley, who is lovely and I would have liked to have seen her again to hear all about her new baby etc...), there was a strange atmosphere in the place, they were clearly breaking the law where breaks were concerned...and I will stop now before this ends up being a full scale rant!

Ohhhh, before I forget, LushFemke - cheers for the job link, had a nosey at it last night. Unfortunately it isn't suitable though, they are looking for an exec with experience, so clearly not me! It is exactly the sort of thing I want to do though, but am going to have to work my way there. Good thing is though, I should be able to get contact details for them somehow and I can contact them about any other vacancies they may have, work experience etc...so a HUGE thank you for letting me know, I really appreciate it.

Well, I had another day of thought about Mr Inglis as someone said the following to me earlier 'Would you have a one night stand with him? Surely it would be better than nothing?' Now as this came from one of my friends I am quite worried than none of my friends really know me at all. I am not a one night stand girl at all! I have had one before and felt so awful after it I vowed I would never do it again. EVER! AND...definitely not with Dunc. Even before I met him and got to know him I wouldn't have had a one night stand with him, would have turned him down if he had asked and would have told him why. I could NEVER go to see him again if it was a one night stand as it would feel very weird (for me anyway), I have too much respect for myself to just jump into bed with a guy, I hate sex without feelings (yes, this coming from her who had a bootie call buddy for a while...he is no more as of Sunday as I have realised my feelings for someone else and it was all getting too much and wasn't fair on my bootie call buddy.) and would have told him all this and now I would also add that I really have feelings for him and just couldn't, basically relationship or nothing! I wouldn't want to throw away everything we have, as it is something really special on one night of sex. I just couldn't anyway...and thinking about it I doubt he could either, things have gone too far between us both now.

Anyway, only thing that really happened today was finding out my Uni Ball outfit looks bloody awful on me! Was at Linzi's and we were talking about it - it's next week - ARGH! Talking about what we were wearing when I remembered my corset and skirt were in the car, so decided to take them into hers and show her it on. Well, I put it on and looked in the mirror - it looked fine straight on, but then I turned sideways...I looked at least 3 months gone! It honestly made me look pregnant! So bad my best friend asked me if I was! I could cry, I really could. It's just over a week away, I haven't got the time or the money to get anything else and I look pregnant in what I have...*sobs* The thing is I am hoping that I was just bloated, but I doubt it is. Maybe I should just do what I did to have the perfect flat stomach on Sunday and not eat all day (this could be why Dunc was shouting at me to eat...but he didn't know I suppose...) and hopefully not look pregnant! Ho hum...